As a published horror writer, I have to admit something...I don't know if I could ever write anything nearly as terrifying as the cult of Trump. My childhood best friend sent me this today while she was sitting in bumper to bumper traffic. I don't know if this is how we cope with everything that has been going on, but this past summer we were shooting texts back and fourth with the most ridiculous displays of cult behavior from Trump supporters. I can't emphasize enough how insane these people come across, I have never in my thirty-three years of life witnessed people supporting a United States President like he was a modern day prophet.
The worst part is knowing how easily he and his administration are manipulating these people into believing all of these baseless conspiracy theories and catering to glorified rhetoric. I don't know if I should be proud of myself for not being so easily duped by the fear mongering, if I should be terrified that the anti-intellectualism movement is thriving and growing daily in this country. You have these people organizing attempts to kidnap governors, protesting outside of the houses of politicians and doctors over their rage for how unconstitutional mask mandates are, and chanting for this man to get "12 more years!" and yet...they are also seething over schools going completely remote because god forbid their children don't get a proper education! The irony is so painful. You want to risk your children's lives and the lives of the teachers and staff of these schools so your kid gets an education while also exhibiting behavior that reveals that you clearly don't value education as much as you want the world to believe you do. It is so frustrating. The pseudo self-righteous types who claim that Trump is the gift of their God while also rooting for peaceful protestors and black people to be gunned down in the streets...at what can you keep telling yourself, there in fact IS a GOD. I am not trying to be offensive, its an honest question. Is there an actual God (he/she/it) why is this happening? What is the purpose of ALL of this? I won't lie, I have always considered myself agnostic bordering on atheist but with kids came an open mind and a desire to have them belong to a community. Right before the shutdown, my wife and I were beginning to narrow down what church might be a good fit for the four of us...and then Trump has protestors tear gassed and manhandled away from a church so he can leverage a photo opportunity to hold a bible upside down and backwards. Upside down and backwards...that's kind of where I am at with all of this. Initially, the poems were flowing pretty intensely. When the book arrived and I started doing promotional work for it, not so much. I have this process though, with writing? My brain takes these fleeting breaks where it just needs to figure out where the hell everything is. It can get pretty depressing. If I'm not constantly writing? I feel like I'm losing time, opportunity, and wasting potential. Its also the best way to keep myself from getting too vulnerable to all the things that drive me crazy about my life and the world around me. Why can't I find a fucking job? Who the hell is reading this book? Is anyone? Did I already peak? Why am I not such a pop culture or horror nut anymore? Do my kids like me? Am I good dad? The questions go on and on... Hopefully a break will arrive sooner than later, for myself and for all of us.
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